Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Hellish Hump Day redeemed....

I am so over January/winter/cold/stuck inside the house.............Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  I was at my wit's end all day today except for the blissful 30 mins on the treadmill.  Day 1 of training for August 1, 2010 1/2 marathon.  I felt great.  But may I repeat, it was DAY 1 of training!  ha ha

The second my husband walked in the door I left.  I wasn't even sure where I needed to go but I had to get out or I may have killed myself or someone else living in this house.  Possibly the whine bag cat.  She's a good candidate.

So God bless a wee bit of retail therapy!  I love one thing about January....the bargains you can find!  All the sales people kept asking me "how is it out there?"  or saying "you are brave."  Yes, yes I am.   I would have ran away naked tonight to get the hell out of the house.

I am back, happier, calmer, and may I say that I heart Trader Joe's.  After watching Oprah today and discussing the upcoming movie "Food, Inc." I love TJ's more than ever!  I have been leaning into this philosophy of unprocessed food for years and this show just confirmed that we are killing ourselves.  If you get a chance to catch the show or catch it in a re-run it is worth your time.

I ran into some old-school windmill cookies at TJ's.  My Dad was a big fan.  I could have busted out a big sobby cry in the aisle but instead just gave a silent little shout out to a man I really miss.  He would have adored being a grandpa.

Off to bed to just let all the thoughts of today wash away via some lovely dream I may have.  Morning comes too soon but the kids need me.  And my heart just bursts when I see Evan standing up in his crib waiting for me to get him out.  He's so smiley and laughing and just giddy to see me.  That is worth waking up for!  That and Starbucks French Roast.

Thanks for letting me vent : )  Night now.

Monday, January 25, 2010

So OVER January!

So after the holidays I tend to have some issues.  Fun over....bordem insue.  However, I've been armed with my girl Jillian Michaels so the "stay at home mom" depression after the fun, busy holiday times has been held at bay.  The Biggest Loser Workout series had me at "better body in six weeks."  Working out has given me a new lease on life and shakes away the morning blues.  This all goes out the window if I don't work out in the morning!

I have several things happening here:  baby boy teething and semi-cold.  snot fest.  red head has semi-cold.  snot fest.  I'm SUPER DUPER sick of prepping meals for said baby boy and red head.  Seriously?  who knew feeding a one and four year old could be so challengening.  I'm so over it. 

Also, I really am just sick of preparing food in general.  Going to the grocery store, lugging. hauling, unloading.  GOSH!  And then I have this big fat cookbook in front of my face called "Mastering the Art of French Cooking" with the voice of Julia Child in my ear telling me that since I don't have a servant (it's 2010 now my friend!) then I should totally embrace this. Yeah, right.  I can't blame anyone since I bought if for myself. 

Two recipes down.  Boeuf Bourguignon which I wasn't impressed with considering the preparation.  I am addicted to big, bold flavors and I was like.............."I did all  that prep and this is what I got?"  And tonight....a fantastic method for getting that crust on a tenderloin and a sauce to die for.  I took the liberty of adding blue cheese crumbles and mixing the red wine, vermouth and beef stock instead of just using one in the sauce.  So there Julia.  I Rachel Ray'ed your recipe and feel much better about my outcome.  In fact, my hubby and I were dying at the goodness.  I guess anything with that much butter has got to be good!!!!!!!!!!!

But really, I wanted to toss the kids and cookbook out the window and run away to my past life of going out for drinks afterwork and having no real responsibility now that I know what that word means.

And then my red head says to my baby boy after the bath...."It's okay buddy....nice boy.  Do you want a binky little man?  I love you brother." 

And I die and cry and sigh and realize that vodka can pull me through the rough patches of the day to get to the goods of this little gem.  (Just kidding!  I don't really drink vodka during the day) 

February is just days away and I know the sun will shine again.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Sisterly Love meets Thursday Thoughts...

While I was chatting with my sister today she said something in regard to "putting it out there in the universe."  So cool.  So true.  We are running the Rock and Roll 1/2 Marathon in August this year with some friends.  It costs $85 to register and I was like, is the medal going to be gold?  Why does it cost that much, etc.  When really I would think nothing of a good night out for dinner and drinks and spending that and more counting babysitter fees!  So she said that registering now, in cold, damp, dark and dank January puts it out there to the universe that indeed, in 7 months or so when the heat is beating down on my brow, I will be running a half marathon.

Hmmmm, and I thought I was the enlightened, older sister!  Thanks Sissy K.  WHAT CAN YOU PUT OUT TO THE UNIVERSE RIGHT NOW?  My girl Oprah always says that the universe can dream a bigger dream for you than you can for yourself.  Well, it's true and I intend to push myself out of my box.  It's just something that so easily happens.  Ground hog day everyday.  I get so tired with the routine, yet it is what makes life rather comfortable at times. 

January always brings these thoughts to the surface.  And then there is the whole Haiti thing.  I just want to take all those orphans and feed them and love them and protect them.  As my two babes sleep soundly right now with full bellies and good health, I send enormous love and thanks and goodness into the universe.  May it land like warm raindrops on those in need.

Friday, January 15, 2010

U-Turn Ahead...

So here we are in 2010.  Two-thousand-and-ten or Twenty-ten?  What's your preference?  Happy New Year!  So many things float to the surface.  I am not here to announce my "I commit to posting everyday" or any craziness like that.  It's just that I really WANT to post something everyday, and really, yes, I have enough nonsense rolling around in my brain to do such, it's just.............well, you know.  It's called LIFE.  LIFE with two kids and running a household and embarking on all the career options I've got inside my brain.  Look people, I've got 5 years until Evan goes to Kindergarten to get it all together!  : )

I have so many resolutions that I have embarked upon already.  ahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahaha.  That was called a joke.  Can we all just live our lives presently, with optimism, courage and chardonnay?  Okay, just kidding.  I just don't believe in resolutions.  I just keep doing what works best in my life.  And really, if we are honest with ourselves, WE KNOW what works and doesn't.

In the recent light of the Haiti devastation, I just give big giant thanks for the amazing life I lead.  I have no idea what these people are dealing with, beyond what they were dealing with in their daily life.  Great karma, love, peace and blessings to these incredible people as they will rise above with our help. 

January is just not my favorite month. ever.  It's the whole let-down from the buzz of the holiday season from mid-November thru Jan 1.  and. then. nothing.  Just forget about it all.  Take down your decorations and deal with the cold, hard winter.  PLEASE!  January just isn't my thing.  Never has been.  Won't be until the kids are grown and gone and January can be spent in a tropical isle : )

So welcome to the new year.  Let us stand together in the spirit of togetherness for Haiti and for ourselves. As a mother, I cannot fathom the grief that children and parents alike are feeling.